Life is so full of twisted relationships - created by us. Even then, I never want to let go of any of them, ever. I love to keep every relationship that I has been created.
But some become so difficult to maintain. May be, somewhere, subconsciously, I just don't want to try. I just want some relationships to take their own sweet *or sour* turns - take the back seat.
And I lost a friendship due to this lack of effort.
Not that I regret it. And although it was I who suggested we part ways, I still somewhere, subconsciously miss it. I do not want to try to hard but I do not want it to pass either. I'm stuck in my own cognition.
It takes so much of me to be what is expected. And I don’t want to spend that kind of energy any more. It seems difficult to find the motivation to do so.
Besides, it shouldn’t be difficult if I really want it. But it is difficult.
But I don’t want to let it go either.
And I lost a friendship due to this lack of effort.
Not that I regret it. And although it was I who suggested we part ways, I still somewhere, subconsciously miss it. I do not want to try to hard but I do not want it to pass either. I'm stuck in my own cognition.
It takes so much of me to be what is expected. And I don’t want to spend that kind of energy any more. It seems difficult to find the motivation to do so.
Besides, it shouldn’t be difficult if I really want it. But it is difficult.
But I don’t want to let it go either.
