I Wish

Sex & The City, Friends, Desperate Housewives, A Walk To Remember, Pursuit of Happyness, Gone With The Wind, The First Time...
That is a list of soap operas, movies, and books that I have read more than once. I have cried when they have cried, laughed when they have laughed and fell in love when they have fell in love.
I have felt the highs and lows of these extensions day and night... But every time they have a happy moment I feel: "I wish!"
Every time Carrie (Sex & The City) laughs with Mr. Big I feel: I wish I could laugh with My Mr. Big. Every time she goes out with her friends for that perfect dinner and busts her stress, I wish I could go out for dinner with my friends too!
Every time Monica, Rachel or Phoebe (Friends) have their perfect kiss, with Chandler, Ross or Mike, I wish I could have my perfect kiss with my Chandler, Ross or Mike. When they all sit in Central Perk and talk about nothing at all, laugh at nothing at all, I wish I could do the same with my friends!
She has a list, in 'A Walk To Remember'... A list of all the things she wants tick marked before she is no more. And he, he makes sure that every item on that list is ticked! Not even ONE of her desires is left unfulfilled! However big or small the desire is, he serves it to her on a platter.
I wish I had him! I wish I had him to fulfill all my desires and wants...
And I feel so sad to know that life is just not that simple... That if you want something that doesn't mean you get it...
I feel so sad, that all of us, we all have to compromise...
We can't belong to that group of friends, We can't be with that one man we want to be with, We can't have that house in the hills, We can't own that perfect wedding dress...
And that's why, we have these fictitious books, movies, soap operas... Where the wants and desires of every one of the characters is exactly what we want...
But the only difference is that, in the end they ALWAYS get it...
And we might not...
Money, Power, Egos, Work, Time Constraints... One or the other always gets in the way... and we lose it... We lose that perfect friendship, we lost that perfect relationship...
And when we don't have those, that perfect walk-in closet isn't something that makes us happy...
So We might just have to live their moments in our heads and feel: "I Wish!"