Ghosts

I do not know what is it about some relationships, but they follow me around where ever I go. The ones that have not stood the test of time and the test of differences. The ghosts of these relationships, haunt me - day in and day out.

They follow me - to my bed, to my workplace, to my college, to my area of solace...

They run in my head, unconsciously, all the time.

I went to sleep in the night with the thought of a beautiful friendship gone wrong and woke up with a dream of a friendship that was based on nothingness. The dream was lost in my unconscious, but from somewhere, it materialized, and stood in front of my eyes at the end of a day which would have otherwise been ecstatic.

After working on my project and doing well at it too, I went for a job interview - which was good. The lonely by lanes of the place where I went for an interview, were also the home of an old friend.

His thought obviously crossed my head. But I didn't call him - it had been long since we were out of touch. And after the interview, when I was on my way back to my house - I saw him. Funnily, not in the lonely by lanes of his home, but elsewhere.

It is surprising, how such incidents occur.
It is as if, God is mocking me, teasing me, tempting me.
Tempting me to get undone the distance between us. Teasing me to go ahead and talk to him. And mocking me, making me realize that all this is nothing but impossible.